Since i came back from Newcastle 3 years ago, everything seems perfect. 'Him' who i thought i would spend the rest of my life with, 'her' who i thought she would be my best friend forever, 'another her' who i thought she would be my closest relative.
BUT...
Why? 'He' never appreciate me. Flirting around with other girls. Do things that hurt me. Even though i had realized it long time ago but i chose to treat it like never happen. That's what we called "Love Is Blind'. Everything got their limit. So am I. The 'answer' is no longer an issue for me. I do admit i cheated on 'him' and the whole world knows about this. Most of them spread around saying I m a Bitch. Know what? It is my own business and I do not need your approval. Just back off and mind your own business! If I meet him coincidentally, I will say thank you to 'him' sincerely. I mean what i said. Thanks for making me give up on 'him' and accept another one who loves me more. I do appreciate it. Except 'his' name, i have forgotten how 'he' looks like, 'his' voice, how we meet and everything. This is my first turning point.
Here comes my second turning point, 'She' used to be my enemy in high school but ended up to be my best pal. 'She' is the only one who always called me and sent lovely letters to me while i was in UK. She used to be one of the 'essential element' in my life. But after my break up with 'him', 'she' started to stay away from me. I can feel that she turned up to be so cold when i talked to her. Sorry if i have done anything that hurts 'her'. If 'she' really wanna give up this friendship, there is nothing i can do. The last thing 'she' told me is, i had my new life, own priority, and new friends. Simple words that have other meaning inside. 'She' is right. I know we are no longer best friend.
The last turning point falls here. 'Another her' who used to be my closest relatives who i shared my secrets with, and so do 'her'. We used to go clubbing together, went shopping together, sing k together, kau zai together until that day 'she' suddenly stopped talking to me. When 'she' walked pass me, i realized that i m a stranger to 'her'. I believe there is some misunderstanding between us but 'she' is unwilling to settle the dispute among us. This is jz a matter btw me and 'her'. Why 'she' wants to drag other people in and make things more complicated until unresolved? Why 'she' wants to spread those rumours that are not true at all?and my secrets as well? Why 'she' wants to spoil my name? Why 'she' wants to do that? What have i done wrong? Why 'she' wants to hurt me that much? Why 'she' wants to make everyone hate me? All question marks come out in my mind. I m not angry with 'her', but i feel disappointed only. I gain a lesson here, no more secret sharing with others except love one and family because u can't forecast what will happen tomorrow.
In conclusion...
I m happy with who i m.
And...
I m smarter and stronger now.
Lastly...
Go mind ur own BIZ!!!
BUT...
Why? 'He' never appreciate me. Flirting around with other girls. Do things that hurt me. Even though i had realized it long time ago but i chose to treat it like never happen. That's what we called "Love Is Blind'. Everything got their limit. So am I. The 'answer' is no longer an issue for me. I do admit i cheated on 'him' and the whole world knows about this. Most of them spread around saying I m a Bitch. Know what? It is my own business and I do not need your approval. Just back off and mind your own business! If I meet him coincidentally, I will say thank you to 'him' sincerely. I mean what i said. Thanks for making me give up on 'him' and accept another one who loves me more. I do appreciate it. Except 'his' name, i have forgotten how 'he' looks like, 'his' voice, how we meet and everything. This is my first turning point.
Here comes my second turning point, 'She' used to be my enemy in high school but ended up to be my best pal. 'She' is the only one who always called me and sent lovely letters to me while i was in UK. She used to be one of the 'essential element' in my life. But after my break up with 'him', 'she' started to stay away from me. I can feel that she turned up to be so cold when i talked to her. Sorry if i have done anything that hurts 'her'. If 'she' really wanna give up this friendship, there is nothing i can do. The last thing 'she' told me is, i had my new life, own priority, and new friends. Simple words that have other meaning inside. 'She' is right. I know we are no longer best friend.
The last turning point falls here. 'Another her' who used to be my closest relatives who i shared my secrets with, and so do 'her'. We used to go clubbing together, went shopping together, sing k together, kau zai together until that day 'she' suddenly stopped talking to me. When 'she' walked pass me, i realized that i m a stranger to 'her'. I believe there is some misunderstanding between us but 'she' is unwilling to settle the dispute among us. This is jz a matter btw me and 'her'. Why 'she' wants to drag other people in and make things more complicated until unresolved? Why 'she' wants to spread those rumours that are not true at all?and my secrets as well? Why 'she' wants to spoil my name? Why 'she' wants to do that? What have i done wrong? Why 'she' wants to hurt me that much? Why 'she' wants to make everyone hate me? All question marks come out in my mind. I m not angry with 'her', but i feel disappointed only. I gain a lesson here, no more secret sharing with others except love one and family because u can't forecast what will happen tomorrow.
In conclusion...
I m happy with who i m.
And...
I m smarter and stronger now.
Lastly...
Go mind ur own BIZ!!!
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